Monday, December 9, 2013

A Needed Update

A Needed Update

Hey Guys, Assalamualaikum.

First off, yes, I'm still alive ,Alhamdulillah. 
Sorry I haven't been updating my blog. Sibuk dengan life generally. Doing assignments, clinical practicum, writing reports, living my life, making and keeping friends.
It's been 2 years since I last updated this blog. And the last entry was to rant about stress and discipline.

Man, did I really wrote that???

Anyways, the reason I'm here is because I've suddenly remembered that I have a blog.
I also remembered all the things in life that I hate and regret.
I've remembered the reason I had a blog in the first place.
I also remembered that most of the people in my life does not know the existence of this blog. Which give me free reign of how I want to use it.

Which brings me to another point that I would like to inform and all my followers and the kind souls visiting my blog. 
I have been diagnosed with major depressive disorder (MDD)
Image 1: Basically what's in my head. A storm.

Image 2: Sums up how I feel. It's more complicated of course. I just feel like taking it easy today. No need to be politically correct.

The images below are the regret and despair I feel. Getting flashbacks, regretting previous actions. Wanting to tell my parents, deciding not too. Caring too much about others health and feelings as well as their opinions on me. This all leads to my depression.

Le gasp. Yup, it's true diagnosed with MDD on my final year of study. Now, the reason I'm telling you is because there are students who have depression and have not been diagnosed. Maybe they feel it's what everyone feels. Or maybe they're afraid of the stigma. Whatever the reason is they need professional help.

Now, why am I writing in Italics?
- I just feel like it.

Being serious again, guys and girls who have been feeling down and in the dumps whose family, friends or a prominent figure has said something that struck you and you've been thinking about it a lot. You need help, at least someone, preferably a professional, to hear you out. Don't go to a psychiatrist if you don't want to. Meet a therapist, or in Malaysia call the Befrienders
You can contact them at 03-79568144 or 03-79568145 daily. They are there for you 24/7.

However, if you or a friend has suicidal thoughts or intention, bring them immediatelyy to the psychiatrist for help.

Now, the point here is to bring awareness to everyone, anyone at any age can have depression. What is important is to get the help you need and resolve your issues. Do what you feel is right for you. Ignore everything else that you don't want to do.

Most of all, good luck on your pursuit of happiness and peace.

Author's note:
-Google depression and it's symptoms.
-I should go on a vacation.
-I will update the blog with my journey to happiness and salvation (wait, who am I saving?)
-If you feel that what I wrote is offensive, or incorrect, leave a comment.

Thanks. Have a pleasant day.